It has been a while..

I seriously do not know how to start. Have not been here in ages. I actually now have a daughter too! She is almost one. We named her Adriana Qairina. Will introduce her one day i guess.

I do not have any of her photos or any recent photos of us here. I even forgot the email i used to login. Shows how long i haven’t login.

Will do some travel stories too. It is not easy traveling with 2 kids. Aqil is almost 4 years old, and Adriana is almost 1 years old now. Oh the horror. Them not listening. Having their own fun together.. But, it was a great experience.

Rambling here. Trying to get back to writing i guess. Pardon me. I haven’t been reading also. Well, at least not the books i want to read. Nowadays i only have time to read Aqil’s favorite book.

Anyway, have a nice day!



I actually made it!

The year is almost up.. I actually made it too the end! Well, at least until now. I managed to give birth to a healthy and awesome son on 14th December 2013. That is when I made this year’s (2014) resolutions:

  1. Survive the year (all the lack of sleep,crying, financially, etc)
  2. Loose all those weights I gained during pregnancy.

First few months this year, I doubt I would be sane by the end of the year. My son, Aqil barely slept, vomits like crazy, cry like he owns the world. Lucky me, my husband really helped. I didn’t have to do all the chores, and taking care of Aqil on my own. He took a few days off, whenever he could, in the early stage. Whenever he is not working he would definitely help me too. Emotionally during those early stages, I was unstable. Hormones adjusting themselves, I¬†was told. I felt like crying all the time, which is just plain weird. Lucky me, all gone by June.

By now, I finally manage to loose all those weights. I am back to my original weight before I got pregnant. Hmm.. maybe I should loose a little bit more..

Not something I would bring over to 2015 though. Not exactly a priority. ūüôā

This was written in response to another one of those daily prompts: To Be Resolved 

We‚Äôre entering the final days of 2014 ‚ÄĒ how did you do on your New Year‚Äôs resolutions these past 11.75 months? Is there any¬†leftover item to be carried over to 2015?


A day late..

The Final Trio, from Daily Post. 

For our final trio prompt of the year, write about any topic you wish, but make sure your post features a bookcase, something cracked, and a song you love.

Currently listening to an old song by Nickleback titled : Photograph, while I catch up and read on posts by other people. Loving it.

Usually at this hour, I¬†would be busy reading books while I¬†wait for my son to wake up. Lately, I have stop buying books. I do not have any space left on my bookcase, and soon the floor. ¬†Need to get my own place where the walls¬†don’t crack, and plenty of space for a bigger bookcase. Maybe with my own library. Its sale time and I cannot get more books. ūüė¶ I even have to re-read what I already have slowly. I don’t sell my books. I collect them.

Hence, the house hunting. Why are houses so expensive? So many new properties sold, and yet when we actually go to the area and check it out, only 50 to 60% are actually occupied. Sigh. It will take forever for us to actually get a place like this. It’s going to be another new year soon, and we still have no place to call our own.

My favourite writing space..

The Daily Post¬†prompted today: Where do you produce¬†your best writing ‚ÄĒ at your desk, on your phone, at a noisy caf√©? Tell us how the environment affects your creativity.

Honestly, it has been ages since I have actually written anything. Just a few days ago, it just occurred to me to start writing again(after sleepless night). Just random thoughts and bits and pieces of my life. I decided that I have to do this because all the ideas and random thoughts always keep me up at night. It will bug me non stop until I either talk to someone or just let the idea flow until I am too tired to stay awake.

I used to write anywhere I can. Noisy¬†caf√© does not bother me much. I just have to make sure all the people sits far away from me and not some where they can read what I¬†am writing. I do not like it when there are people around me looking in when I write. Yes, I know I¬†am not perfect, and yes, I know my grammar and ideas might be wrong..however, its my idea and my posts. I do not need others to tell me or correct me every time I write. Its annoying and by the time you are done correcting me, I usually tend to forget whatever I wanted to write in the first place. That’s why I just let it flow and when I am done I will proof read and correct my mistakes. If I do need help and need someone to correct me, I will ask for help. Never ever doubt that.

By the way, usually when I write, I tend to block other people out. Just like when I am reading. My hubby always complaint that I do not listen to him when he talks or call me. Thus, nowadays I will write only late at night at my desk using the computer after everyone has gone to bed.

I do use my phone to write, however, its mostly just to make check-list of things to do or a reminder so that I do not miss out on anything important.  It is just not the same as writing using a pen and a book or the computer. Phone is just too small for me. It also annoys me whenever a message or calls come in during writing. Sometimes I even get angry at whomever that calls or text. Thus, I tend to avoid using phones.

So, my favourite writing space is my desk in my room. ūüôā

Welcome Aqil Ziqri..


It was on a Saturday morning , 14th Dec 2013 around 4 am that my water bag broke. Adam was sleeping. Lucky me he was home and not at work. I was confused at first since it was my first pregnancy. I had no idea what exactly to expect even after going to classes and reading notes on what labour might be like. I woke Adam up and we actually googled.. lol.. Google to see if it is really my water bag that broke and what to do next. heheh..

After confirming everything, we then proceed to pack my bag and make a move for the hospital. Erm‚Ķi got nagged since i did not prepare everything in advance since everyone already told me to get it ready way in advance.. hmm..well, i couldn’t complain since it was my fault for procrastinating. By the time we arrived at the hospital it was about 6 am. I got admitted immediately into the labour room and once the nurse checked me, i was already at 3 cm wide. Basically, in order to start pushing the baby out, it has to be at 10cm. So we waited‚Ķ and waited.. By the way, i was admitted to the¬†Prince Court Medical Centre.¬†

I decided not to take the epidural and bear the pain. However, after a few hours, my contractions did not get stronger and the doctor decided to put me on a drip. Thus, the pain got worse and closer to each other. In the end i had to take the epidural because i could not cope with the pain. I couldn’t even rest and wait for the time to start pushing. I was already at 5 cm when i asked for epidural. By the time the doctor finished giving me the epidural, i was already at 8 cm and it hurt so bad.. For those wondering if all the pain goes away after taking epidural, no. You will still feel pain but its like at the beginning of labour,mild. The best part is,that you can still feel the contraction and you would still know when to push the baby.

I was given an hour to do normal delivery after i reached 10 cm. If i cannot get the baby out by then, doctor would operate on me. I was like¬†‚ÄúNooooo!! I am getting him out normally and not by c-section‚ÄĚ.¬†It was all in my head though. Heheh..I pushed and pushed and pushed‚Ķ I couldn’t push hard enough to get him out. He goes in and out again and again, i think.. i had that image in my head. No idea why though. At the last 5 minutes, doctor asked our permission to assist using the vacuum‚Ķand voila!¬†Aqil was born!! ¬†

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We were so happy.. and still are. The best gift ever to the both of us.. He was adorable! and cute! LoL… i think we are biased..well, he is our son.. heheh..

Our joy was short-lived.. Aqil was readmitted to the hospital on the second day after being discharged, for jaundice. 20131218_185356edited

His was at a very high level that the doctor decide to readmit him. We wanted to get a room and stay with him. However, the hospital was fully booked and the rooms available are only the suites which would cost a few thousands per night. We stayed until evening and came back the next day. They managed to get his jaundice level down to a safe level and he could go back with us. We were ecstatic!!